God And Finding Your True Soulmate

22 April 2000

For special people searching for that unique person in their life. It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how exactly you feel.

Maybe, God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion and the romance in a relationship and find out you still care for that person. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you,  only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be. and you just have to let go. When the door of happiness closes, another opens. but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Giving someone all your love is not an assurance that they'll love you back. Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart, but if it doesn't be content it grew in yours.

There are things you'd love to hear that you would never hear from the person that you would like to hear them from, but don't be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from his heart. Never say goodbye if you still want to try- never give up if you still feel you can go on - never say you don't love a person if you can't let go. Love comes to those who still hope although they've been disappointed, to those who still believe, although they've been betrayed, to those who still need to love, although they've been hurt before, and those who have courage and faith to build trust again.

Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth, title or position, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Dream what you want to dream. Be what you want to be because you only have one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything. They just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. One day when you are not looking...GOD WILL PRESENT TO YOU YOUR TRUE SOULMATE...

TODAY

21 April 2000

In just a blink...
I made mistake stupidly.
And in just a blink...
I lost you unreasonably.

What I've done?...my God.
My self went shock, as in shock.
How could I've been mad
To the one I love.

And there I was, like a fool.
Thinking how to make you cool.
Scream here, scream there.
I couldn't help, you still at stare.

I thought those dooms would never leave.
As I pray for that night to fade away.
For it caused so much pain and trouble on me.
As I ask for an apology.

Whew!...Wow! What a relief!
Of forgiving a fool like me.
Thanks to you
For teaching me how to be me.

And now I'm confident to tell anybody.
That I'm living today, not yesterday,
        not tomorrow but today.
And I'm so lucky
To have you as my buddy.

Now that we're okay
I'm confident to say
My chum will always be my chum,
Till the end of time.

Words of Thousand Thoughts

I heard you unaware.

Your words spoke a thousand thoughts.

You just told me what you had to say.

I knew, it was only based on what I have shown you by heart.

But honestly, your words moved me...

Disturbed me... surprised me...

I admit, I hide things for some reasons privately.

I hide and I want it to be that way.

To be misjudged by anybody is what I'm afraid and worried of.

You are supposed to be in exemption since we shared a lot of things for so long.

But you are too good.

You are too right.

I trust you, yes I do.

But I can't help it, shameful still.

I'm scared...

Of the ghost I made.

Last night  at work...

Those words of yours haunted me 

While I was at the midst of my busy daily routine assignments.

Then when the clock ticked at 3:50 am...break time.

I grabbed a nap for 35 minutes.

I dreamed...

"There I stood at a crowded street as I caught one's own breath.

I was scared, Oh no! somebody was running after me.

Minutes after, someone from behind easily wrapped her arms around me

And said, Hey!, It's all right...I'm just here...

I turned and looked at her, she smiled in mock and together we laughed.

Whew! It was my best friend who run all along after me then...:)"

When I woke up, It was then I remembered and realized

The last few words of yours justified by that dream.

That whatever happens, what and who really am.

You are just there...

You were just there behind me all through this time.

This also made me realized that whatever secrets I may have.

Whatever or however I keep.

I can't hold it.

You caught me...

Then I wondered...

Why is that so as always?

I'ts just simply because YOU KNOW ME...of course.

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Wow!, It's been so long...It feels good to write you again for your birthday. Heheh, same as before this is only I can afford for now as present on your special day...my words...

This is my way of thanks giving for being with me, for bearing with me for the past 17 years of friendship.

Although we are not that physically close just like before, we are still friends...Best of Friends by heart...

I know you're not comfortable with compliments...Just bear with this, anyways this is for your birthday...

I'm just happy...I'm just glad for the friendship we have had. Many times I thought I lost you, of all the ups and downs we had within that 17 years...I'm so glad that the TRUST we have for each other still there...and of course we both care.

In time, we will talk...I promise...

In advance...

Happy Birthday!...:)