Coming Out from the Dark

Living life wouldn't mean
That you have to do things right
To have eternal life after death.
Living life would mean
That you have to live it the way you want it.
The way you think is right.

What am I babbling about?

He is the only reason for this.
Just him.

Then why is God's definition of love
So different from anyone else's?
How ca it be so different from mine?
When we all know that
It simply...feels good...to love.

See
Everything about me, my whole body,
My mind, my heart, my soul,
My whole being points out to this person
And tells me that what I'm feeling is not a lie.

How can that be so bad
In the eyes of so many?
And in the eyes of God?
I just...don't get it.

I was thinking...
Maybe it would have been better and easier
...If it was someone else.
But the thing is...It's not.

Why does it have to be him?
Why does it have to be only him?
I'm going to be completely honest
And spare myself from being completely disillusioned.
I just want one day...to be with him.

Just one day and that is all.
Nothing more. Nothing less.

I just want to be able to
Live that moment again.
To let my heart
Feel an overflow of emotions.
I want to feel the intensity
Flowing into our bodies.
Releasing on our fingertips.

Is that too much to ask?
Just one more day.
Please? Can I?