Four Years of Complicated Relationship

It was eight years ago when I met this wonderful person in the past at work. Let's just call him Wiv. He showed me the mystery of life. Oh, how beautiful my life was to be treated as princess in our own little world in his own ways. It was Wiv who cared for me as much as my parents do. But my journey with him was not that perfect as I wanted it to be. I lived in secrets and hid in the shadows for four years. I knew the risk but I tried still. No one to be blamed.

All throughout my student life, I never let my heart ruled over my mind for I didn't wanted my folks get disappointed on me. I did good in school. I didn't entertained suitors. I didn't even had much male friends. I was scared then of getting into relationships. So after I got my license in my chosen profession, I thought of taking the risk and giving my heart a chance to ruled and experienced the what we so called "love". Wiv was the first one who took the challenged of winning my heart. It was not easy for me to say the magical word "Yes". Maybe it would have been easier if it was someone else but it's not. It took me a lot of courage to dealt with my feelings and somehow gambled my fate.

Four years...In a relationship...somehow Complicated...

Since we were of the same company, we have seen each other often. We talked and laughed a lot. We had lunch and dinner together more often. We did so much what was supposed to be done as partners. We had our ups and downs. A lot of "LQ's" passed. No regrets...I learned a lot.

There was just a time, a third party came along our way. Wiv got an intimate connection with a woman other than me. It hurts...It was a heartache. To justify, I got even and later on somehow learned to forgive him. But unexpectedly after all what happened, things may not be the same as it used to be and so my feelings. Maybe my heart was scared and tired enough to gamble its fate for another heartache caused by a person I trusted most.

It took also for me a lot of courage to end everything right there and then. 

All connections were cut and burned. My heart cried. It really hurts when love fails.

And It has been four years already since my last love and heartache. 

I know my heart is now strong enough  to face all the challenges in life.

No more running away. I swear...