07 June 2000
As I walk along the way,
Tracing the paths of unknown points
To where my life is going to be...
I found myself lonely and needy,
I looked at any angels of destiny
Searching reasons and solutions
For this uncertain mystery.
Then I discover the difference
Being alone is a hard task
To accomplish one's mission of life...
I got a wise and definite answer,
I must have somebody
Someone who can I turn to
To share achievements in life.
Friday, April 18, 2014
DAYDREAM
07 June 2000
I saw him very manly,
In a manner so gently.
He moved so naturally
And stared at me steadily.
We hold hands so tightly
Expressing love sincerely
We felt our heart beat that fast
So happily and endlessly.
He told me repeatedly
That I am so lovely
Whom he loves very truly.
I only smiled sweetly,
Showing my inside openly
That I love him also deeply.
I looked at him teasingly,
As he touched my hair tenderly
Which then swayed cheerfully.
I was so happy and so gay,
To that moment sparingly,
But then unknowingly
All turn out mystically
I wondered innocently
Why you've gone so suddenly
I looked around carefully
Finding your presence lively.
And I found out actually,
I was just alone and lonely
Sitting by the window permanently
With eyes staring so far away.
Then I discovered completely
I was just playing solely
In my thoughts foolishly
That all existed fancily
And borne out to be fantasy.
I know I was crazy
Yet I felt very sadly
For I was just dreaming that day.
I saw him very manly,
In a manner so gently.
He moved so naturally
And stared at me steadily.
We hold hands so tightly
Expressing love sincerely
We felt our heart beat that fast
So happily and endlessly.
He told me repeatedly
That I am so lovely
Whom he loves very truly.
I only smiled sweetly,
Showing my inside openly
That I love him also deeply.
I looked at him teasingly,
As he touched my hair tenderly
Which then swayed cheerfully.
I was so happy and so gay,
To that moment sparingly,
But then unknowingly
All turn out mystically
I wondered innocently
Why you've gone so suddenly
I looked around carefully
Finding your presence lively.
And I found out actually,
I was just alone and lonely
Sitting by the window permanently
With eyes staring so far away.
Then I discovered completely
I was just playing solely
In my thoughts foolishly
That all existed fancily
And borne out to be fantasy.
I know I was crazy
Yet I felt very sadly
For I was just dreaming that day.
Those Happy Moments
07 June 2000
The sparkle of your eyes when you smile,
The tender touch of caring hands,
The sweet kisses from your warm lips,
Those laughter we've made when the
sand castles we've built were
washed away, not knowing it
would mean a broken heart.
Yes, we build a dream,
You're the king and I'm the queen.
But dream is just a dream,
It was lost when I woke up.
Now, I'm compared to an island,
So lonely since you've gone.
Why did you left me alone?
Where are those promises you made?
Don't you know the sleepless nights,
I've spent just thinking of you?
I've even again and again wondered,
Why you've done to me such cruel.
Don't you know how you broke my heart?
Oh! it hurt so much that makes me beg for death to end.
But I could never hate you, and
Neither will I revenge, and
I can't help but weep and suffer for
Tears can't hide and memories lingers on.
I am thinking for your comfort dear,
Please come back to me, I'm waiting.
Heal this wounded heart and bring back those
Happy moments we've shared.
Sunday, April 13, 2014
God And Finding Your True Soulmate
22 April 2000
For special people searching for that unique person in their life. It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how exactly you feel.
Maybe, God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.
Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion and the romance in a relationship and find out you still care for that person. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be. and you just have to let go. When the door of happiness closes, another opens. but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Giving someone all your love is not an assurance that they'll love you back. Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart, but if it doesn't be content it grew in yours.
There are things you'd love to hear that you would never hear from the person that you would like to hear them from, but don't be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from his heart. Never say goodbye if you still want to try- never give up if you still feel you can go on - never say you don't love a person if you can't let go. Love comes to those who still hope although they've been disappointed, to those who still believe, although they've been betrayed, to those who still need to love, although they've been hurt before, and those who have courage and faith to build trust again.
Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth, title or position, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Dream what you want to dream. Be what you want to be because you only have one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything. They just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. One day when you are not looking...GOD WILL PRESENT TO YOU YOUR TRUE SOULMATE...
For special people searching for that unique person in their life. It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how exactly you feel.
Maybe, God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.
Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion and the romance in a relationship and find out you still care for that person. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be. and you just have to let go. When the door of happiness closes, another opens. but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Giving someone all your love is not an assurance that they'll love you back. Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart, but if it doesn't be content it grew in yours.
There are things you'd love to hear that you would never hear from the person that you would like to hear them from, but don't be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from his heart. Never say goodbye if you still want to try- never give up if you still feel you can go on - never say you don't love a person if you can't let go. Love comes to those who still hope although they've been disappointed, to those who still believe, although they've been betrayed, to those who still need to love, although they've been hurt before, and those who have courage and faith to build trust again.
Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth, title or position, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Dream what you want to dream. Be what you want to be because you only have one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything. They just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. One day when you are not looking...GOD WILL PRESENT TO YOU YOUR TRUE SOULMATE...
TODAY
21 April 2000
In just a blink...
I made mistake stupidly.
And in just a blink...
I lost you unreasonably.
What I've done?...my God.
My self went shock, as in shock.
How could I've been mad
To the one I love.
And there I was, like a fool.
Thinking how to make you cool.
Scream here, scream there.
I couldn't help, you still at stare.
I thought those dooms would never leave.
As I pray for that night to fade away.
For it caused so much pain and trouble on me.
As I ask for an apology.
Whew!...Wow! What a relief!
Of forgiving a fool like me.
Thanks to you
For teaching me how to be me.
And now I'm confident to tell anybody.
That I'm living today, not yesterday,
not tomorrow but today.
And I'm so lucky
To have you as my buddy.
Now that we're okay
I'm confident to say
My chum will always be my chum,
Till the end of time.
In just a blink...
I made mistake stupidly.
And in just a blink...
I lost you unreasonably.
What I've done?...my God.
My self went shock, as in shock.
How could I've been mad
To the one I love.
And there I was, like a fool.
Thinking how to make you cool.
Scream here, scream there.
I couldn't help, you still at stare.
I thought those dooms would never leave.
As I pray for that night to fade away.
For it caused so much pain and trouble on me.
As I ask for an apology.
Whew!...Wow! What a relief!
Of forgiving a fool like me.
Thanks to you
For teaching me how to be me.
And now I'm confident to tell anybody.
That I'm living today, not yesterday,
not tomorrow but today.
And I'm so lucky
To have you as my buddy.
Now that we're okay
I'm confident to say
My chum will always be my chum,
Till the end of time.
Me
21 April 2000
Here I am again,
Wearing the same mask,
Denying the anger, fear...
What a good actress?
Still shamming as if...
That I'm still okay.
Smiling in front
But screaming behind.
And now there you are
Want me to reach
But how can I?
If I have still this.
Is it enough to cry
Just to express myself?
Is it enough to lough
For me to be safe?
My friend, can you still identify me?
The real me from that mask
After all that I've revealed.
No, you'll never, never...ever.
Here I am again,
Wearing the same mask,
Denying the anger, fear...
What a good actress?
Still shamming as if...
That I'm still okay.
Smiling in front
But screaming behind.
And now there you are
Want me to reach
But how can I?
If I have still this.
Is it enough to cry
Just to express myself?
Is it enough to lough
For me to be safe?
My friend, can you still identify me?
The real me from that mask
After all that I've revealed.
No, you'll never, never...ever.
Thursday, April 10, 2014
MIRRORS
(Guidance 2 - October 2002 with 1.2 grade)
From a Sister
She is great and for all the good traits she had, undeniably, the members of our family appreciate her so much. But for me, there is no other traits can fill to complete her existence except for her being kind.
Yet, being good and kind-hearted person will not be appreciated without her alter ego. I observed that she is quite moody and ill-tempered sometimes which makes me feel so irritated.
From Friends
Good companion, good friend, she is a good adviser in different situations. True friend and can be trusted.
She don't talk about what she feels, think on some situations and about some things that bothers her. Sometimes, too frank that could make some people offended.
From a Loved One
Just a point of clarification before I start, I have nothing to do with any romantic involvement with the addressee. I'm just actually a mere friend of hers - one of her closest friends, that is. Well, to me, She's no longer a common friend that comes and goes through the years. She's always been a good companion (everywhere), a listener, a hand when I'm in need and of course, my reflector - who critics and evaluates my damn self.
She has lessen her being "loud-mouth" about anything, but there are some instances that she tends to lose her tact - and again hit others. She also has that irritating attitude wherein she gladly opens a conversation,, bring something up and say a word or two about it and when you ask what was she talking about , She'll just give you a shrug and a dismissing look that tells you to just back-off and forget anything, infuriating, right?
REACTIONS from the addressee
For a Sister
I'm not used to hear any critics or evaluation from my family. We're not that good in expressing inner emotions to each one of us. But since I asked it, so my younger sister tried to have something, jot here in my notes. I'm quite glad to hear some appreciation from her. At first glance, on what she have written, something deep inside softly stabbed my feelings. My gosh!, it touched my heart. On the other hand, upon reading the unpleasant feedback, I'm no longer surprised about those bad stuffs since I consider her as my enemy at home. Don't think that I don't love her - I love her very much. If I could just dare to express my feelings to her, I would tell her How am I thankful and glad for having her as my sister.
For Friends
I'm not anymore surprised of how they appreciate me. I admit I'm that good as a friend, companion and as an adviser to their woe's and predicaments. On the contrary, I also admit being frank and silent or perhaps unfair in the sense that they shared more and I shared less. But it doesn't mean that I don't trust them at all. It's just that I'm still shy, I'm ashamed to let them know about what I truly feel deep, deep down inside me regarding a certain person or a thing. All through this time I've been trying to lessen this bad habit but still I could hear feedback's about that damned attitude. But inside myself, I know I did something and I think I've lessen it if not totally but at least.
For a Loved One
Since I'm not in a relationship, so i chose a friend (closest), one who knows almost everything about me to give feedback as my loved one. We'll I guess her evaluation and my expectation met. It is exactly I whom she described of being a good kind of friend to her. On the unpleasant side, Oh man!..She hits the bulls eye. Huh,..It hurts...But still I appreciate her of being honest, She really knows me inside out.
From a Sister
She is great and for all the good traits she had, undeniably, the members of our family appreciate her so much. But for me, there is no other traits can fill to complete her existence except for her being kind.
Yet, being good and kind-hearted person will not be appreciated without her alter ego. I observed that she is quite moody and ill-tempered sometimes which makes me feel so irritated.
From Friends
Good companion, good friend, she is a good adviser in different situations. True friend and can be trusted.
She don't talk about what she feels, think on some situations and about some things that bothers her. Sometimes, too frank that could make some people offended.
From a Loved One
Just a point of clarification before I start, I have nothing to do with any romantic involvement with the addressee. I'm just actually a mere friend of hers - one of her closest friends, that is. Well, to me, She's no longer a common friend that comes and goes through the years. She's always been a good companion (everywhere), a listener, a hand when I'm in need and of course, my reflector - who critics and evaluates my damn self.
She has lessen her being "loud-mouth" about anything, but there are some instances that she tends to lose her tact - and again hit others. She also has that irritating attitude wherein she gladly opens a conversation,, bring something up and say a word or two about it and when you ask what was she talking about , She'll just give you a shrug and a dismissing look that tells you to just back-off and forget anything, infuriating, right?
REACTIONS from the addressee
For a Sister
I'm not used to hear any critics or evaluation from my family. We're not that good in expressing inner emotions to each one of us. But since I asked it, so my younger sister tried to have something, jot here in my notes. I'm quite glad to hear some appreciation from her. At first glance, on what she have written, something deep inside softly stabbed my feelings. My gosh!, it touched my heart. On the other hand, upon reading the unpleasant feedback, I'm no longer surprised about those bad stuffs since I consider her as my enemy at home. Don't think that I don't love her - I love her very much. If I could just dare to express my feelings to her, I would tell her How am I thankful and glad for having her as my sister.
For Friends
I'm not anymore surprised of how they appreciate me. I admit I'm that good as a friend, companion and as an adviser to their woe's and predicaments. On the contrary, I also admit being frank and silent or perhaps unfair in the sense that they shared more and I shared less. But it doesn't mean that I don't trust them at all. It's just that I'm still shy, I'm ashamed to let them know about what I truly feel deep, deep down inside me regarding a certain person or a thing. All through this time I've been trying to lessen this bad habit but still I could hear feedback's about that damned attitude. But inside myself, I know I did something and I think I've lessen it if not totally but at least.
For a Loved One
Since I'm not in a relationship, so i chose a friend (closest), one who knows almost everything about me to give feedback as my loved one. We'll I guess her evaluation and my expectation met. It is exactly I whom she described of being a good kind of friend to her. On the unpleasant side, Oh man!..She hits the bulls eye. Huh,..It hurts...But still I appreciate her of being honest, She really knows me inside out.
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